I Have A Lot of Feelings About This Episode Of Girls

I just finished watching this week’s episode of Girls, and I have so many emotions right now that I felt the urge to write a post. Just be aware, there are definitely spoilers, so continue at your own risk.

Let me just start from the beginning. I have been watching Girls on and off since I was 18 (I am now 22), but I have really become obsessed with it in the last year or so. The fact that I have a very unhealthy obsession addiction to Adam Driver has not helped this. Anyway, from the very beginning, I have loved Adam and Hannah’s relationship. Yes, they had their issues, but I felt like they had both grown so much since the beginning, that maybe they could finally live happily ever after. But of course, we can’t always get what we want.

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Ever since I first saw the teaser last week for this week’s episode, I’ve been thinking about how they could possibly resolve the show. Because, let’s face it, we only have two more episodes left. To be honest, I was completely under the impression that Adam and Hannah would end up together, but when Lena was doing press before the season started, she made some comments about Hannah and Adam’s relationship. Basically, she said that she was surprised that so many people wanted them back together because that meant she hadn’t done a good enough job of showing how messed up their relationship was. From that moment, I had been mentally preparing myself for complete and utter heartbreak. Instead, I found myself very conflicted.

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This week’s episode starts with Adam telling Jessa that he wants to raise Hannah’s baby with her, and Jessa is seemingly okay about the whole thing, which was unsettling to me. Because, like everything about them is so explosive especially when it involves Hannah. But whatever. Then, the rest of the episode is like one big happy montage of Hannah and Adam being in love. I thought I would be ecstatic, but there was something in the pit of my stomach that knew it wasn’t going to last. They had been too far gone.

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What really shocked me was how guilty I felt for wanting Adam and Hannah to be together when it was obvious that Jessa needed Adam. Seeing her go back to her old ways of hooking up with random men in bars really hurt me. There was also a very strong parallel to Jessa walking into bar, and it was later confirmed in the “Inside the Episode”. The shot of Jessa walking down the street into the bar was the same shot they did in the first season when Jessa decided to go into a bar instead of have her abortion. It was obvious that her way of dealing with her feelings made her revert to her old ways, but she couldn’t just disappear into her old vices. When she said “I don’t want you” to the guy she was hooking up with, my heart broke for her. But then, seeing Adam and Hannah together again was so satisfying, which made me feel even more conflicted.

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In a way, Adam making that movie about him and Hannah was a self-proclaiming prophesy. Because when he was filming he mentioned something about even though they wanted to be together, the relationship was too intense to survive. And once they find themselves sitting in a diner, planning out their lives as parents, it becomes obvious to them that they can’t be together. Watching them cry reminded me of the end of season 4 (which is both my favorite and least favorite season finale) when they are faced with the reality of being back together, but know that it just won’t work. Throughout the show, they have tried and tried again, but they just aren’t good together. I think it was hardest for me to come to this conclusion (haha).


I can’t believe, though, that Jessa would just let Adam come back knowing that she is essentially his second choice. It’s sad. But at least she knows that being with him makes her happy. I feel like a part of her always considered herself this lone-wolf, but once she found herself actually alone, she realized that she wanted more. Also, she thought she was pregnant in season 1 when she went into that bar and hooked up with someone, and this season there was a scene of her throwing up and then going into the bar just like before. Seeing those parallels made me realize how much Jessa has also grown throughout the years, and she deserves to be with the person she loves. I feel like Jessa in the first season would have been too prideful to admit that she needed somebody; at least she is strong enough to make a decision based on her overall happiness rather than “winning”.

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I have to admit, if Hannah wasn’t going to be with Adam, I would have wanted her to be alone anyway, because she is a strong, independent woman who don’t need no man!

This show makes me so happy and so sad all at the same time, but I will never tire of these characters. This is a show that I will re-watch over and over again. And I will fight anyone who thinks that Girls is anything short of genius.

66 Thoughts I Had While Watching Girls (S6E2)

It’s Sunday night, which means Girls is back on! It also means that I have to wake up early and go to class. But that’s kind of why I love Sunday nights so much. It’s one last hurrah before reality sinks in.

Girls is one of my favorite shows—I could just watch it on a loop for the rest of my life and never get bored, which is why this season is so important to me. First of all, it is a new season with new story lines, and secondly, it is the last season. I am so sad to see all of these characters go, but I am completely confident in Lena’s writing that it will be incredible.

We’re only on the second episode of the series, and I’ve been doing something fun with my friends. We’ve been live-chatting (snapchatting) each other our reactions as we watch the show, and it has been really hilarious.

I haven’t posted in a while, so I wanted tonight’s to be a fun one. Here are a few of my thoughts I had while watching episode 2 of Girls. Be warned, this includes spoilers!

  1. Right off the bat, really uncomfortable sex scene with Marnie and Desi
  2. Why is Marnie like this?
  3. Oh, please just stop. This is so awkward.
  4. Hannah’s hair is scarily similar to my current hair style
  5. Elijah and Hannah are so cute. I love their relationship/bond they have formed over the seasons!
  6. SO EXCITED! Elijah and Shosh are hanging out! I love when characters that don’t usually do scenes together, get together for an episode!
  7. “Where’d you get this number?”—Elijah
  8. Elijah is nude from the waist down! (But forreal, I love his little bubble butt!)
  9. Jessa and Shoshanna doing a video message for their grandma is adorable!
  10. Love Jessa’s hair!
  11. Video message got weird real fast.
  12. Jessa: “You work in the market, right?” Shosh: “I work in marketing”. DEAD.
  13. WHERE IS ADAM?
  14. I really don’t like Desi.
  15. Hannah has such a unique way of running.
  16. JOY BRYANT! Love her!
  17. This season is definitely giving me some OG Season 1 vibes, but in the best possible way! The characters have grown so much!
  18. I can’t with Marnie.
  19. Joy Bryant’s character is a little extra.
  20. Hannah is completely mesmerized by her.
  21. Love the lemon shirt!
  22. I really want to start collecting tea pots because of this episode.
  23. Also I’m kind of starting to wonder if Joy Bryant even works there. Like, did she just steal that and give it to Hannah?
  24. Desi looks like straight-up Where’s Waldo.
  25. He just tried to bite her boob.
  26. Why is Hannah even going with them?
  27. I really love that tea pot set.
  28. Marnie looks like she belongs on Big Little Lies (Side note: GREAT FIRST EPISODE TONIGHT)
  29. Elijah’s outfit is amazing.
  30. Shoshanna’s leaf clutch is so Shosh (side note: props to costume designer)
  31. What is Elijah’s last name?
  32. Shosh’s romper is so cute!
  33. Jamba Jeans? Really?
  34. Is Elijah pretending to be straight?
  35. I want to punch these Jamba Jean girls in the face.
  36. Oooooh Elijah is about to get some!…in the bathroom….
  37. ***Desi’s song***(I WAS SHOOK)
  38. Desi is a drug addict? He’s off his rocker!
  39. Why does Desi just carry around a brief case full of pills?
  40. Desi and Marnie are arguably more self-destructive than Jessa and Adam re: Season 5 finale
  41. He is SNORTING the crushed pills up from the floor.
  42. Like, there is glass. He’s gonna hurt himself.
  43. Where is Hannah?
  44. Marnie=rude AF
  45. They are dragging him out the door.
  46. This is giving me Hush flashbacks (Great movie on Netflix…check it out)
  47. She’s going to crush his hand in the window!
  48. He just broke the window!
  49. Hannah, the spatula, really?
  50. HE BROKE THE TEAPOT.
  51. This is such a sweet Marnie and Hannah episode
  52. WHERE IS ADAM DRIVER?
  53. Shosh’s hair is so pretty right now
  54. Elijah went there!!
  55. Adam does NOT have oral herpes.
  56. Shosh is gonna go after my man like that?
  57. Shoshanna is totally going to tell Ray about Desi and Marnie
  58. Jessa did NOT ruin Shosh’s life! How rude. (side note: Jessa gets such a bad rap, but she doesn’t pull people into her mess of a life; people come willingly. And that is no one’s fault but their own.)
  59. I hate seeing Shoshanna cry.
  60. Why are they so mean to Jessa?
  61. Jessa’s trench coat is everything.
  62. Are they just going to leave Desi there?
  63. Aww, Hannah’s taking care of him
  64. Marnie, don’t leave them. Ok, they’re going together #teamwork
  65. Alison Williams is so beautiful.
  66. WHERE IS ADAM?

***Prepare to have your minds blown. The song that Desi is playing by the window in the kitchen is the same song that Adam plays on the guitar in episode 2 of season 2 when he sends a bunch of hostile songs to Hannah because of their breakup. It is the second song that he plays. I am equally impressed and humiliated that I immediately recognized that song, because I am a hardcore creeper of Girls and have watched every episode a hundred million times, sooooo…

Anyway, I hope you enjoyed this post. It really only makes sense to anyone who has already watched the episode, so we’ll see if I do this again in the future.

Hope everyone has a great week!