November Bullet Journal Spread

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Happy November 1st everyone! I cannot believe that October is already over! I feel like it was just yesterday that I was sharing my October spreads with you.

So for November, I decided to follow along with Amanda Rachel Lee. She is a YouTuber that I follow who does gorgeous spreads and for November she did a crystal theme. I’m not the greatest free-hand drawer so this was actually pretty challenging for me but I think I like how it turned out in the end.

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Here is my month at a glance page. I kept it fairly similar to last month but instead of splitting up the calendar by morning, evening, and all day, I split it between personal and school. So we’ll see by the end of the month how I like the change. As I mentioned in my first post, the customization is my favorite part of bullet journaling.

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Next is my tracking pages. Last month was the first month that I really stuck with my tracking. Even if I didn’t do every habit every day, I was consistent in tracking what I did accomplish. I also really liked the way I did the mood tracker last month where I colored in a different leaf each day so I’m doing the same thing here except with poorly drawn crystals.

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And for the last of my monthly spreads, I have a November Memories page. This has been a really cool part of my bullet journal and I know that it will be fun to look back on over the years.

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P.S. the glitter washi tape is from Target in their dollar section.

Thank you so much for reading.

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September Music Round-Up

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It’s September, which if you’re a student like me, then that means you are probably starting to feel overwhelmed and nearing a panic attackRecently, music has been a crutch of sorts for me to throw myself on, praying it will hold me together. Well, that and wine. Lots of wine.

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So in true procrastinator spirit, I have abandoned my homework and other daunting assignments, and I compiled a list of songs that I have been obsessed with this month instead. Now, take this with a grain of salt, because I am no music expert. I have pretty lame taste in music. But that’s okay. Because as long as I am not in the midst of a full-blown panic attack, I’d count it as a win.

So without further ado, here is the cluster of music that I scream at the top of my lungs on my way home from class and work.

1. You Don’t Do It For Me Anymore – Demi Lovato

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Demi Lovato is my ride or die when it comes to singers. I mean, aside from my queen, Adele. Like I love her. One of my favorite pastimes is Kitchen Karaoke where I pretend I can sing pop songs. Her voice is amazing, and she blows me away again and again with the control she has over her voice. She has a new album coming out next week, and I am so ready for it.

2. Bodak Yellow – Cardi B

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I’m kind of slow at keeping up with hot music trends. My friend, Cassandra, over at Sequins & Sass played me this song, and I’ve been obsessed ever since. Another one of my tried and true pastimes is pretending I can rap.

3. Too Good At Goodbye – Sam Smith

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Need I say more? It’s Sam Smith. You know it’s beautiful. You know it’s great. You know it will make you cry buckets of tears.

4. These Heaux – Bhad Bhabie

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This song made its way into my playlist as a joke, but it’s actually kind of amazing. Again, I like to pretend I can rap. But seriously, give it a shot. Blare it. Love it.

5. Younger Now – Miley Cyrus

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Like Demi, I have loved Miley Cyrus for a long time. Even when people thought she was crazy, I was still there. You can say what you want, but Miley was born to perform. She also has an album coming out next week so basically I’m in music heaven right now.

6. Woman – Kesha

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Kesha’s whole album is pretty great. I was definitely surprised at how real it was, compared to the music she did in the past. This song is another great one to sing scream while speeding driving at a perfectly safe speed down an empty road. There is something really empowering about yelling “I’m a motherfucking woman” at the top of your lungs. You should definitely try it.

7. Tell Me You Love Me – Demi Lovato

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Refer to #1. I’m super pumped for this album. I wanted to spare this list all of my Demi love, but while you’re at it, check out “Sorry Not Sorry”.

8. I’m a Rebel Just For Kicks – Dunez

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This is just such a fun song. It transports me to another place entirely where I’m rocking bell bottoms and crop tops: Coachella. Just kidding, but yeah this song is great.

9. What About Us – P!nk

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P!nk is another amazing singer. Her voice is so rich and distinctive. Enough said. She’s great.

10. Walking the Wire – Imagine Dragons

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This song feels like it belongs in a movie during a montage or something. It’s just a good song. I’m not a huge Imagine Dragons fanatic–like I don’t religiously listen to their music or anything, but I  can’t deny that they’re great musicians.

11. Look What You Made Me Do – Taylor Swift

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I’m a bit of a basic bitch when it comes to music. I love T. Swift. Unless she murders my dog or something, I’ll probably always listen to her music. I don’t think this song will have a super long shelf life–I’m about sick of it–but for a couple weeks, it played on repeat.

12. …Ready For It? – Taylor Swift

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See #11. This one is on the rocks for me because I still haven’t figured out how I feel about her “rapping”, but again, I’m a basic bitch when it comes to Taylor.

13. Attention – Charlie Puth

I liked this song when I first heard it on the radio, and then I’ve recently been really into it. It’s just another fun one to sing along to.

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So that is my music round-up. I’d like to make this something I do regularly, so keep a lookout for next month’s.

I Have A Lot of Feelings About This Episode Of Girls

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I just finished watching this week’s episode of Girls, and I have so many emotions right now that I felt the urge to write a post. Just be aware, there are definitely spoilers, so continue at your own risk.

Let me just start from the beginning. I have been watching Girls on and off since I was 18 (I am now 22), but I have really become obsessed with it in the last year or so. The fact that I have a very unhealthy obsession addiction to Adam Driver has not helped this. Anyway, from the very beginning, I have loved Adam and Hannah’s relationship. Yes, they had their issues, but I felt like they had both grown so much since the beginning, that maybe they could finally live happily ever after. But of course, we can’t always get what we want.

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Ever since I first saw the teaser last week for this week’s episode, I’ve been thinking about how they could possibly resolve the show. Because, let’s face it, we only have two more episodes left. To be honest, I was completely under the impression that Adam and Hannah would end up together, but when Lena was doing press before the season started, she made some comments about Hannah and Adam’s relationship. Basically, she said that she was surprised that so many people wanted them back together because that meant she hadn’t done a good enough job of showing how messed up their relationship was. From that moment, I had been mentally preparing myself for complete and utter heartbreak. Instead, I found myself very conflicted.

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This week’s episode starts with Adam telling Jessa that he wants to raise Hannah’s baby with her, and Jessa is seemingly okay about the whole thing, which was unsettling to me. Because, like everything about them is so explosive especially when it involves Hannah. But whatever. Then, the rest of the episode is like one big happy montage of Hannah and Adam being in love. I thought I would be ecstatic, but there was something in the pit of my stomach that knew it wasn’t going to last. They had been too far gone.

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What really shocked me was how guilty I felt for wanting Adam and Hannah to be together when it was obvious that Jessa needed Adam. Seeing her go back to her old ways of hooking up with random men in bars really hurt me. There was also a very strong parallel to Jessa walking into bar, and it was later confirmed in the “Inside the Episode”. The shot of Jessa walking down the street into the bar was the same shot they did in the first season when Jessa decided to go into a bar instead of have her abortion. It was obvious that her way of dealing with her feelings made her revert to her old ways, but she couldn’t just disappear into her old vices. When she said “I don’t want you” to the guy she was hooking up with, my heart broke for her. But then, seeing Adam and Hannah together again was so satisfying, which made me feel even more conflicted.

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In a way, Adam making that movie about him and Hannah was a self-proclaiming prophesy. Because when he was filming he mentioned something about even though they wanted to be together, the relationship was too intense to survive. And once they find themselves sitting in a diner, planning out their lives as parents, it becomes obvious to them that they can’t be together. Watching them cry reminded me of the end of season 4 (which is both my favorite and least favorite season finale) when they are faced with the reality of being back together, but know that it just won’t work. Throughout the show, they have tried and tried again, but they just aren’t good together. I think it was hardest for me to come to this conclusion (haha).


I can’t believe, though, that Jessa would just let Adam come back knowing that she is essentially his second choice. It’s sad. But at least she knows that being with him makes her happy. I feel like a part of her always considered herself this lone-wolf, but once she found herself actually alone, she realized that she wanted more. Also, she thought she was pregnant in season 1 when she went into that bar and hooked up with someone, and this season there was a scene of her throwing up and then going into the bar just like before. Seeing those parallels made me realize how much Jessa has also grown throughout the years, and she deserves to be with the person she loves. I feel like Jessa in the first season would have been too prideful to admit that she needed somebody; at least she is strong enough to make a decision based on her overall happiness rather than “winning”.

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I have to admit, if Hannah wasn’t going to be with Adam, I would have wanted her to be alone anyway, because she is a strong, independent woman who don’t need no man!

This show makes me so happy and so sad all at the same time, but I will never tire of these characters. This is a show that I will re-watch over and over again. And I will fight anyone who thinks that Girls is anything short of genius.

Luckiest Girl Alive: A Review

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I haven’t been doing so well with my resolution to read more. Since January, I’ve only read two books. This past week, I read Luckiest Girl Alive by Jessica Knoll, and it is so beautiful. I can already tell that it will be one of those books that you pick up year after year to read again.

I first heard of this book through a weekly newsletter that I am subscribed to. For those who don’t know, I am OBSESSED with Lena Dunham (blog post to come, I’m sure). She and one of the producers of Girls, Jenni Konner, started an online newsletter called Lenny Letter. Knoll wrote a piece in one of the issues a year ago today about her book. In the Lenny Letter, Knoll talked openly about how her personal experience with sexual assault led to the idea of her novel (you can read her piece here). She was so open and raw in her piece that, without even knowing anything else about her book, I had to read it. And on one fine day, I found myself once again strolling the aisles of Target when a familiar book cover caught my eye. I’m so glad it did, because I instantly fell in love.

The novel follows the soon-to-be Ani Harrison (formerly TifAni FaNelli), who strives to recreate herself in an attempt to alter people’s perception of who she was. She is a senior editor at The Women’s Magazine which is most comparable to our Cosmopolitan, and is engaged to the attractive, blue-blooded Luke Harrison. It would appear as though she has the perfect life, but very quickly you can tell that there is something unnerving about her. Throughout most of the novel, the reader is left in the dark about Ani’s past, but through small glimpses and memories, we slowly begin to understand the dark and twisted person that we’ve been unapologetically subjected to. Knoll creates a very realistic mindset that we get to experience throughout the entirety of the book.

Personally, I felt an instant (yet frightening) connection with Ani because her internal monologue mirrored my own in a dark way. Perhaps it is just a testament to Knoll’s writing that her readers can understand her character so well, or perhaps I should seek professional help. Either way, I definitely miss Ani’s quick wit and dark humor.

It is beautiful, inspiring, and suspenseful. I have told all (two) of my friends about this novel, and now I urge all of you to do the same.

How I Relieve Stress

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As someone who struggles with self-diagnosed anxiety, I am no stranger to stress. Working part-time, taking a full load of classes, and tutoring on the side sometimes leaves me feeling overwhelmed. It is important to understand how anxiety affects you and find ways to relax that suit you. I can physically feel most of my tension fall away as soon as I set foot in my bedroom, my safe haven. I get incredibly homesick (or room-sick) when I leave each morning. If it were up to me, I would forever lie in my bed with my dog curled up against my leg and Gilmore Girls playing on a loop next to me.

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One of the first things I do is light my candles. I have four right now that I light every day. Believe it or not, but I used to think candles lasted for years before I met my dear friend, Cassandra. When we lived together, we lit candles every day which got me addicted and made me broke. From that point on, I was a changed, candle-hoarding, woman. My favorites are the Signature Soy ones from Target.

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Next, I make some tea. I have a small variety of teas that I choose from. While the water heats up, I take a quick shower. I am somebody who values my sleep above all else, so I don’t usually have the time in the morning to spend showering, so I do it at night to wash away all the day’s struggles and frustrations.

Usually at this point in the evening, I am cool, calm, and collected. With my room smelling warm and fragrant from the candles, and a hot mug of Honey Vanilla Chamomile tea (my current obsession), I sit at my desk and unwind by either catching up on my favorite YouTubers or reading a book.

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This has been my relaxation routine, which kind of turned into my nightly routine, but anyway, it has really benefited me and my sanity.

 

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